Meet Melanie Davis Porter. She once had a twisted view of God and it messed with everything that mattered to her.
Today she has a new word written on her heart. She’s loved. Plain and simple. Loved by God for exactly who she is. ~ Suzie
I Am Loved
Melanie Davis Porter
My view of God was warped. I was a broken, little girl with a constant hurting heart. Raised in a legalistic, caustic atmosphere, I became a loner and stuffed the hurts under my smile. Unconditional love was foreign. I was taught that God would get me for everything.
I lived terrified that God stood watch waiting to take something or someone away because of my sin.
Feeling unloved caused me to excel in performance.
I found admiration and attention free of criticism and constraints.
Feeling unloved caused me to abandon God’s will.
Life changing decisions now redeemed by grace, threatened my motivation to endure specific seasons of life.
Feeling unloved ham stringed my marriage.
Doubt shadowed me for years.
Feeling unloved, hindered my ability to be the parent God wanted for three precious little boys.
I held on so tight. I smothered to the point of dysfunction. I wanted them to feel the love I never felt. [Read more…]