I shouldn’t feel this way.
If I were a “good” Christian, I would be happier.
I don’t look broken on the outside, so why let anyone know what’s going on inside?
Have you ever said any of these things?
Or perhaps someone shushed you when you brought it up, so you learned to put on a good front.
May I tell you something? Keeping silent about your pain isn’t a great idea.
Worse, it’s a trap.
Not talking about your brokenness only keeps you broken.
I get it.
You don’t want to be that person who is seen as negative. You don’t want to be that one who refuses to move past old things, or who isn’t trying to heal but pointing out what’s wrong with everyone else.
But that’ s not you, and you know it.
You love God with all your heart. You want more. You’re holding up the mess inside with open hands.
Sheila Walsh once said something to me in an interview. She said that we all need to offer space for grace to speak it out loud when we are struggling.
This is what her words said to me:
1) Others, even in visible arenas of ministry, sometimes feel broken.
2) What might happen if we spoke it out loud, rather than walking around in pretense?
My interview with Sheila was one of the most powerful interviews I ever participated in, and her words resonated long after the interview ended.
When I meet someone who holds out a picture of her beautiful family, or paints a picture of her beautiful life, and then whispers, “I shouldn’t feel this way,” it’s may be the perfect moment to offer space for grace.
Speaking it out loud robs it of its power. It’s no longer secret.
It allows a a light to shine on that feeling, holding it up before God.
It’s discovering that it’s a season or a trial or a raw and wounded place that needs a Savior’s touch.
In just three weeks we’re going to start our study over The Mended Heart: God’s Healing for Your Broken Places.
I never meet a woman harboring brokenness that I don’t wonder what she’s going to look like in the hands of a Savior who loves her like crazy.
Between now and then, share how you feel. Write it down in a journal. Or tell a trusted friend. Share it here, if you desire prayer from me and others.
Rob it of its power!
Then open your hands to receive His love, and affirmation that you are His.
When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” John 8:12 (NIV)