It feels like everything tries to pull me away from prayer.
I see others who seem like prayer superstars. I imagine their knees crisscrossed and scarred.
I kneel and suddenly I’m tired. I think about my grocery list or the thought that I need to write 1,000 words that day or I won’t be on deadline. I used to feel guilt about the fact that I struggled to pray, or that I had to push through. I somehow thought it should come easy, because it looked so easy for others.
Until I acknowledged that prayer is communicating with God, and it makes sense that this is the one area where the enemy would fight the hardest.
Sam Storms, in his book, Practicing the Power, wrote:
If you want your life to experience divine power, it needs to be a praying life.
If I desire to move past what I cannot change, prayer will be a part of that process. Prayer won’t always be easy, or convenient. There will be distractions. Yet there’s something that happens when I commit to it. I connect with my Heavenly Father who knows the plans he has for me. I hang in there until the mountains tumble down and I walk away having received, but also having given of myself.
My will shifts a little more away from flesh to faith. From feelings to truth. From uncertainty to wrapped in his love and security.
Sometimes I hear hard things from God, like, “Suz, it’s time to forgive,” or “Daughter, don’t leave me out of this situation.” Prayer is an opportunity to find my way back home, to that person he knows I am, to my real self — the one I am meant to be.
So, where do we begin?
We commit to making it a part of our life. A part of our faith. A part of who we are. We go in with the understanding that there will be distractions thrown at us. Words might not always come easy.
Yet we do so knowing that prayer changes us. Prayer shakes its fist at the enemy who wants to hold our loss over our head, and over our heart.
Prayer isn’t a just step forward, it’s where we’ll find our way back home.
Day #16 of Moving Past What You Cannot Change
I used to think that prayer looked like this: kneeling, quiet, reverent. That belief changed over the years. Prayer for me is walking in my living room. It’s worship playing in the background. Sometimes it’s wordless, as tears stream down my face. Other times I battle and war with words that spill from the deepest part of me.
For you, it might be kneeling. It might be prayer journaling. It might be face down on the floor or in a prayer closet.
It’s not about how we do it, but that we do it. Prayer isn’t a posture; it’s a position of the heart.
Read Colossians 4:2
- Look up the word “devote.” Write down the synonyms for this word.
Q: One definition is to “set apart.” Why is it important to set ourselves apart in prayer?
- Pray. Don’t waste one moment in guilt over those distractions or how hard it seems. Just begin to pray.
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