I’m expecting!
No, not in that way.
Yet I’m am expecting and that’s wonderful, and hard. Really, really hard. Two months ago during prayer God placed a number on my heart. I’m not a numbers girl.
I don’t count people, but see them one by one.
I don’t count or measure to determine success. How many people are at an event, or not. I don’t count my books, my friends, my Facebook likes.
I don’t count what I own or what others own, but consider it all His.
But there it was. That number. That thing He wanted me to believe in BIG.
So I weighed it.
Is it of eternal value?
And it was. That sounds churchy, I know. But the benefits went beyond chalking up a win. . . to something that lasts forever.
Is it scriptural?
If it goes against what I find in the pages of the New Testament, then I table it. It’s not for me. But it didn’t.
I waited on it.
Rather than leap into it, I wait. That might be one night. That might be one hour. That might even be a few seconds, if it’s something that needs action in the moment.
I let it sink into my heart. It didn’t go away.
I believed it
Oh, this is where faith had to walk in because I didn’t see it then, and I don’t see it yet. That’s when we might start trying to convince God that what He said can’t possibly be true.
Is there anything too hard for me, the Lord? Genesis 18:14
But I choose to believe. I don’t know what this is going to look like, or even what He has in mind, but I’m expecting because He’s God and He spoke it into my heart.
Maybe you are in that place of expectancy too.
Especially when it comes to healing your heart. You are reading the words in the book and following this study and they haven’t quite felt real yet.
But you know He said them so you hold tight and you believe.
Maybe like me, the reason that you struggle is that you thought it meant today.
Like.right. now!
Part of expectancy is watching it unfold. It’s seeing that it’s His hand and not our own. It’s unclenching our fists and letting it play out according to His plan.
Are you expecting? I’m so glad.
Let’s expect together!
Suzie
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I do! I get carried away with the expecting in the right now, instead of anticipating the unfolding of His plan on His time. I needed to hear those words. My One Word for 2015… is Expect, btw. So your post and His truths, they have extra meaning for this sometimes rash and timid faith o’ mine 😉
Thanks, and blessing upon blessing, Suzanne!
Thanks, Christine. Mine this year is “to fast” or deny. It’s been an interesting and beautiful process. It shows up even in this expectation, to give up striving and rest in what He said.
Congrats! What a cute announcement. You have a beautiful family and will never run out of opportunities to babysit now 🙂
Oh word. . . that just gave me pause. <3
Suzie,
Congratulations on being an expectant Gaga…how exciting! With twins, they are really going to need your help! Blessings to you and your growing family,
Bev xx
Nothing is too hard or impossible for God! However, we have to learn to stop putting up roadblocks. Praying for you, our other study leaders and those who are studying “The Mended Heart.” A much needed and perfectly timed study for me personally.
Congratulations on the expanding number of grandchildren!
Expecting with loads of anticipation the results of all God plans to do with the number He placed in your heart! Thank you for always, always point us to the beautiful heart of God Suzie!
So many #’s of hearts are being changed with this study and I imagine it’s impacting even more hearts than we can ever see or count, sweet Suzie! Congrats on the twins I know you are over the moon excited!!!!
I’m expecting changes in 18 months and now is the time to plan and prepare. Don’t know how it will unfold but isn’t that what a journey is about?
It is! It’s the expectancy. It’s waiting. It’s moving when He says move. It’s ignoring closed doors if He continues to speak it into your heart and it lines up with all of those things.
Today’s post was one of my favorites Suzie. wow. It is so in line with what God has already been speaking to me. To be expectant as to what God is doing.. to watch for Him. I was reading the story of Hannah this morning to, how she poured out her heart in expectancy to God.. how she was not afraid to risk that.. thank you for this beautiful reminder.. I just love you!
I love the story of Hannah and how she came day after day with an expectant heart. But more so how she gave that dream back to Him in the form of her son. Beautiful analogy!
Congratulations, Suzie! I’m so excited to hear that you will soon have two more babies to love! I can so relate to your words here. The Lord has promised me healing and wholeness, and I firmly believe that what He promises He will do, but the process has been long and often challenging – not immediate as I had hoped. Through this process, though, I have seen some amazing things happen. For me, the most exciting things have been learning to discern His voice and hear Him speak words of love into my life, and sharing my journey with others at Incremental Healing. Our loving, heavenly Father knows what’s for our best, and we can trust in His timing and plans! He is so very good to us!
Blessings and hugs,
Kamea
That’s huge, Kamea! It’s such a place of intimacy with Him. <3
Oh Suzie. I’m overwhelmed at His goodness! This is in line with where I am… not numbers… but other life circumstances. He spoke something to us, and we will believe and wait with EXPECTANCY. And through you this morning, He has sent us a sweet reminder to do just that. He. Does. Not. Fail. Thank you, Suzie, for always following the promptings of the Holy Spirit, and for being real. This number in your heart is in my prayers, as are you, always. Bless you, beautiful friend.
Waiting with you.
Congrats on expecting more babies in your life and congrats on your gift of faith which spurs you on to expect from God. Our lives should indeed exude an expectancy for God to be active and working. Thank you for reminding me!
That pregnancy announcement is so cute! Congrats to you all. I love that idea of expecting. I’m learning to pray big prayers and expect that God will come through, even if it’s not exactly what I would have planned or hope for. Excited to read other people’s thoughts on expecting! Thanks for hosting!
Seven babies under the age of five, can you imagine? Oh my word!
CONGRATULATIONS!! Super wonderful news.
Congrats on the twins!! So exciting!! But even more exciting is how God continues to use His faithful servant Suzie. Just over the last several months watching The Mended Heart get to the women who need it, looking back on the path it took and the moments then highlighted by question marks and seeing all the moments now highlighted with exclamation marks!!! Oh to see God in action, it is indeed awe inspiring.
Luke 1:45 “Blessed is she who believed that there would be a fulfillment of those things which were told to her from the Lord.”
Hey, congrats! Isn’t being a grandmother just the best? (Love “Gaga” by the way.)
Yep. Where we are. Expecting. Waiting. Doing what we can do while waiting for God to do His part. Trying to not look aside to others whose journeys don’t seem to be taking so long. Making plans yet knowing that, in truth, nothing is certain. Trying not to be frustrated when things aren’t happening as fast as we feel they should and then trying to ignore the thoughts of doubt that leap and creep in. Praying people don’t give up on us in the process. And choosing. Choosing to hold to what I heard God say–“It’s time, let’s go!” And so, like the children of Israel wandering in the desert, I choose to, and practice, reminding myself of all that He has done on this journey so far. The amazing things that only He could do and in doing so, my expectancy grows! After all, many times it’s the journey (with its lessons and stretching and growth) that are the goal and not necessarily the destination, right? 🙂 Love you, Suzie! So blessed to have you on this journey with us!!
Or, should I say, like the children of Israel, it’s the lessons we learn on the journey that allow us to survive once we reach the destination. (At least that’s what I keep telling myself.)
Congratulations on the upcoming arrival of your twin grandbabies.
I believe I am expecting too Suzie, and my challenge is to believe against all doubt that God is an able God. Thank you for the reminder that there is nothing too hard for God! May we all be patient and faithful in our waiting. Be blessed and congratulations on the added grandkids.
Thanks Kia, and man oh man, grandbabies are dropping from the sky!