I was angry.
The feelings were real. We walked away from church, my hands tightly at my side.
How did things go wrong so fast?
And at church?
The funny thing is that as I type this, I can’t remember what made me so mad. If I think about it for a minute or two, all the details will flood back. And yet the fact that I can’t remember them just might mean they weren’t as important as they felt in the moment.
Oh, there it is. They just came to me.
I was asking my sweet guy for his input on something that really mattered to me. He chose that moment to show me something I had done wrong a few moments earlier. His motivation was pure. He was even right, but his timing was all wrong.
So was my response.
“Thanks,” I said. “That was super helpful.”
Yes, he got the message.
“Are you mad at me?”
We walked the few blocks to our car. I didn’t lash out. I didn’t create a scene. Instead I used one of a woman’s most powerful weapons: I said nothing at all. He knew I was angry. He wasn’t quite sure what he had done wrong, and he didn’t know how to make it right.
Writing blog posts like this may not earn me your admiration. After all, I’m a Bible teacher. I share the Gospel. However, if I pretend that I never struggle, I’m a fraud, and I dump a burden on you that says that I never ever make mistakes so you must somehow fall short.
There was a holy war going on in my heart, even as we walked in silence. It was the sermon I preached the weekend before to a group of amazing women at the Come With Me event.
What is your right-now invitation?
You see, we all have right-now invitations.
They are the “Come with Me” invitations where Jesus asks us to follow him — not just that initial invitation to make him Savior, but those invitations that completely change us.
My flesh wanted to be angry. My feelings wanted me to coddle and nurture them and drive them deeper into my heart.
My right-now invitation from Jesus was to forgive.
Truly forgive. Not just break the silence, but love my husband and give grace. We climbed in the car and stopped at Sam’s Club to pick up some items (and free samples, don’t let me fool you). As we walked side by side in the parking lot, I reached for his hand.
“I love you,” I said.
I could tell he didn’t know why he had upset me, but he certainly understood that something had sent us down a wrong path. I saw the relief on his face.
Later we talked through what had gone awry. His timing, but mostly my response because that was where we detoured.
This incident might seem really small, but we often pay attention to the big stuff because it’s about to fall in on us. We forget that most big stuff starts small. Maybe that’s why the Holy Spirit was battling so hard on the inside of me — Suzie, don’t let this get any bigger.
Jesus has a right-now invitation for us.
Jesus offered right-now invitations to his disciples/followers all the time.
Peter, will you see yourself as I see you?
Philip, will you trust me with your “not enough?”
Mary Magdalene, will you allow me to exchange shame for destiny?
Thief on the cross, will you believe that this is not the end for you?
Suzie, will you give Richard grace, just like I do you?
We learn to listen for these right-now invitations as we read the Word, study His life, as we lean into the voice of the Holy Spirit. Then we have an opportunity to surrender to them. Saying yes offers life. Wisdom. Healing. Truth. Direction. And so much more. It doesn’t make us perfect. It just allows our faith to lead us, rather than our right-now feelings.Accepting our right-now invitations from Jesus transforms our faith and changes the world around us. http://wp.me/p4jbdw-4k3 #ComeWithMeDevo Click To Tweet
Join me in a new study: 21 Life Changing Invitations as We Follow Jesus
Maybe you aren’t sure how to listen for a right-now invitation. Maybe you want to learn what that looks like, and how to lean in and say yes to Jesus’ invitation to you.
Monday, October 23rd, we’ll start a new 21-Day Adventure. We’ll meet right here five days a week. You don’t have to show up at a specific time. Just know it will be waiting for you. I’ll drop in with a video wrap up and encouragement every Friday.
The resource we’ll use is my new book, Come With Me Devotional: A Yearlong Adventure in Following Jesus.
You’ll use the book during the study, but the good news is that you can continue to use this devotional for the rest of the year. It’s 260 short, powerful devotionals and invitations, offering five days of walking with Jesus and soaking in those beautiful moments over the weekend.
I pray this will be as life changing for you as it was for me.
This 21-day study is great for a small online or study group. It’s perfect for your morning time with Christ. It’s a great tool for that friend who is discouraged by what she sees about faith in our world, and longs to reconnect with Jesus.
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I’d love to also invite you to the Facebook event page as well, where we’ll discuss this in depth five days a week.
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I am excited about this new study. It’s been far too long since we’ve hung out like this. I can’t wait!
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