Have you ever lay awake at night worrying?

Lately the enemy has tried to use that time of rest to unsettle this God’s girl. We made a series of faith steps these past four years, and it was exactly what we knew we should do. No regrets. But now we are in another place of faith.

The enemy would like to come in and make me question our steps. But every time I get on my knees, I hear that gentle encouragement, and once again I know that we are on the right path.

I was reading a familiar story (in John 6:5-6) when an unfamiliar aspect jumped out.

Jesus soon saw a huge crowd of people coming to look for him. Turning to Philip, he asked, “Where can we buy bread to feed all these people?”  He was testing Philip, for he already knew what he was going to do.

I’ve read this story a hundred times, and I’ve never seen this. I can only imagine that Philip was incredulous as he looked at the vast crowd of people. “Feed them? Are you serious?”

I love this story, and I love the ending, but it’s the in-between part that fascinates me. The part when you don’t know how it’s all going to work out.

The enemy has been showing me obstacles. Big ones. He’s saying, “How are you going to do this or that? I thought you had a plan.”

As I sat in my livingroom with my Bible in my lap, tears fell. You see, I realized that I was looking at the crowd and I took my eyes of Jesus.

Christ loved the crowd but He loved Philip, too. He fed one, but He stretched the other to help him trust beyond the obvious.

I still don’t have all the answers, but God does. And that brings me comfort, and direction.