I’m a planner. Sounds like a good thing, right?
But it’s not always so. Yesterday I read my morning devotional, Sarah Young’s Jesus Calling.
These words stopped me cold:
You will not find My Peace by engaging in excessive planning, attempting to control what will happen to you in the future. That is a commonly practiced form of unbelief.
I sat quietly, soaking in those words as I prayed.
Oh, Lord, you’ve seen inside my heart. You know me well. I say I trust you, and I do, but I don’t at the same time.
Who knew all the time I devoted with my thought life, my searches, my daydreaming and my planning, was actually me taking the reins and trying to make it happen.
And when it doesn’t? You see me in that place as well. Confused. Unsure. Striving harder.
You are calling me to rest in You, and Your plans. I see the signs. I know you are at work. It’s just not been in my time schedule or in the way I thought it would unfold. Forgive me for that unbelief, Heavenly Father. I place my plans, and my restless heart in Your capable hands. And by doing so I walk away light, unencumbered by the weighty, fruit-less planning so that I may enjoy today and all the gifts that will unfold.
Proverbs 16:9: We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps.